11th March - good day sunshine

As it was such a lovely day, I actually made the time to go for a walk. Normally I get so caught up with my 'to do' list that I forget to actually enjoy my free time. Following the sense of peace that was still present after the ski trip, it was good to be out in God's creation. I felt at home and comfortable with myself in way that I haven't for a long time. It seems that I have been trapped in a place of despair for so long, knowing that I wanted to get out, that this wasn't what I had chosen but feeling that I had to work through this grief and come out of the other side. As a celebration of my freedom, I ran down a hill making windmills with my arms in complete abandonment to the moment. Happy for no other reason than I am alive and free.

I'll be ski-ing down the mountain....

I actually returned from the ski trip in February and it's now May and so, though it's a bit late, I still wanted to record my thoughts! Basically, I had a great time. I was accompanied by my very brave friend Miss JT , the only non-christian in a bunch of believers! I didnt keep a journal so I don't have a day by day account, however it was fantastic to learn a new skill. I would advise anyone who is skiing for the first time to have private lessons. As the instructor ( the lovely and very sweet Sebastian) can give more individual attention, you learn much quicker and by the end of the fourth lesson I could do parallell turns and though by no means at an Intermediate level, I am confident to handle a reasonable blue run. The best thing about the ski trip was returning with a renewed hope in life. The darkness that had been so present in my life for the last 6 - 8 months has finally lifted and I feel ready to face challenges again. I'm looking forward to pursuing the things that I feel led to do. I feel that some of the gifts that have lain dormant in me are going to be re-born!

Sebastian and his happy pupils!